Billie Eilish may not like to admit it, but she's always been the heartthrob in her relationships.
Celebrating the release of their third studio album, Hit me hard and softThe 22-year-old music icon sat down with Lana Del Rey to talk about her new music and her role in past relationships.
The conversation abruptly veered from a mention of the couple's legendary duet on the Coachella 2024 main stage to talking about Eilish's perspective on love, as highlighted in her 10-song project.
Rey got straight to the point and asked: “When one of your romantic relationships ends, do you think you leave them with a thousand questions? Or do they leave you with a thousand questions? Or is it split 50-50?
“Is it more dangerous to fall in love with you? Or is it more dangerous for you to fall in love? Del Rey added in the article published on June 13 for Interview Magazine'yes summer cover function.
The “Happier Than Ever” vocalist was perplexed, considering her past experiences. Del Rey guessed the answer would be: “50-50.” Eilish confessed that her colleague could be right.
“I think 50-50 is probably accurate,” Eilish admitted before noting, “I literally hate who I am so much when I'm in love.”
Continuing her candor, the Grammy winner explained that her relationship problems stemmed from problems she has with letting go of control and making herself vulnerable. Being romantic with her partner is not her strong suit.
Eilish told the “Summertime Sadness” creator: “I don't really like being – I was going to say out of control, but there are ways that I like to be out of control. I have a power problem and a control problem, and I also don't like being vulnerable in a romantic way. It makes me feel uncomfortable and I don't know how many times I have truly fallen in love.
“I think there are different versions of love, and I think you can be in love and it may not be deep. I'm not going to go into too much detail, because I'm going to be rude, but they have never abandoned me and, furthermore, they have never broken me. I’ve just made the breakup,” she added.
Del Rey told Eilish that she didn't think Eilish was “rude” for being the one who always broke up with her partners. In fact, the “Born to Die” vocalist thought this was because Eilish always wanted to “run away” from her relationships. But with that being said, the “Wildflower” singer noted how the public jumps on assumptions without considering why she wants to end these relationships.
“For sure. And I think when people hear that, they're like, 'Oh, all you do is break hearts,'” Eilish admitted. “Sure, but that doesn't mean people are totally innocent. It means I thought, ' Oh, let me get out of here.’ Or it means things just weren’t right.”
Elsewhere in the interview, Eilish spoke with Del Rey about her new song “Lunch,” where she not-so-subtly expresses her interest in women. Del Rey questioned whether Eilish was worried about what the public would say when she released the song.
“Do you wonder what people are going to say about the song 'Lunch'?” -Del Rey asked.
Eilish admitted: “I'm pretty aware of what people will say. It's so strange to grow and change in front of the world. The craziest part is finding out things about myself and suddenly everyone else knows it, and I don't have a second to think about how it makes me feel.”
In April, Billie Eilish spoke with Rolling Stone about his sexuality and how “Lunch” developed. She told the outlet that the song didn't start out being about women.
“That song was actually part of what helped me become who I am, to be real. I wrote part of it before I even did anything with a girl, and then I wrote the rest,” she proclaimed. “I've been in love with girls my whole life, but I didn't understand it, until last year I realized I wanted my face in a vagina.”
